If only we knew what to do

When we start a relationship we never expect people to change. It is said a woman starts a relationship wanting to change a man, and a man doesn't want a woman to change. The reality is we are changing all the time, as we meet different people and mature so we change.
When we care about some one we want to show them how we feel, we feel something change in ourselves it is a metamorphosis, a stirring of feelings we are unsure of, a wanting to let our feelings show, yet unsure of how we will be percieved.
That first touch, letting our guard down, that feeling telling us to kiss some one - yet holding back not sure of how it will be interpretted. Are we stepping to close into some one elses space? If we share a kiss will he think I am too forward? Will it scare them away?
Some how it is easier to refrain and loose some one than to show our feelings and be rejected.

I don’t know how to love him
Mary Magdalene
I don't know how to love him
What to do, how to move him
I've been changed, yes really changed
In these past few days
When I've seen myself
I seem like someone else

I don't know how to take this
I don't see why he moves me
He's a man
He's just a man
And I've had so many
Men before
In very many ways
He's just one more

Should I bring him down
Should I scream and shout
Should I speak of love
Let my feelings out?
I never thought I'd come to this
What's it all about?

Don't you think it's rather funny
I should be in this position?
I'm the one
Who's always been
So calm so cool
No lover's fool
Running every show
He scares me so

I never thought I'd come to this
What's it all about?

Yet
If he said he loved me
I'd be lost
I'd be frightened
I couldn't cope
Just couldn't cope
I'd turn my head
I'd back away
I wouldn't want to know
He scares me so
I want him so
I love him so